am i still cant get over H.I.M?

title cam xdpt terima kenyataan jew hehe..
well it has been more than 1 year after i broke up wit R***. aku pn xphm la..aku still syg dia ke? I guess not..
tp smlm aku stalked his FB,(stalk ke?tgk je ^.^) and i saw a pic of him wit new girl.
am i jealous?erm myb a bit..but not bcos i still in love with him but why cant i get someone new in my life?
dia pnh btunang after we broke up tapi dah putus and now he found someone..hermm after only stahun 7 bln broke up,dia ade 2 org dlm hidup dia (or myb dh lbh)
but me?emm still alone..bkn aku xpnh try terima org lain dlm hidup ak, tapi sumenye xmenjadi.. they all are like S**T.
those yg rapat dgn aku,tau la aku mmg pnh rapat dgn a few men after broke up..
~s*****i~ f**z~ s****n~
 tapi sume nye cam haram.. actually dorg ni la yg wat kan aku cam xcaye laki lg bukan sbb r***..

shema byk kali tanye aku..

shema: nina xnk try kwn dgn org lain ke?

me: bkn xnk tp penat la asik dikecewakan..

shema: xsume laki cam2..

me: tapi sume laki yg nina jmpe cam2..

shema: nina jgn tutup hati nina utk terima org lain..

me: ntah la ma..i'm sick n tired of it..

lastly,shema pn surrendered dgn kes aku..smpi kan shema kate dia nk adjust aku dgn sorg bdk ofis merangkap mmbr ktorg merangkap mmbr s*****i. mmg la mamat ni smart,hensem gak la tp sbb dia mmbr s*****i, sorry la..nnt kang tah ape dorg komplot nk kenakan aku..tul x?

tahla...aku slalu remind myself.. 
let time decide...