A day full of BENGANGness

tensionnye ari ni!!!

1. gaji lambat gile masuk.ptotnye mmg ari ni.cek kt m2u,xmasuk2 gak.dah la esk nk merayap..

2. mase balik tadi,naik KTM, aku skali lagi diraba oleh lelaki yg GATAL!!. ade indon ni,bdiri sebelah aku,tgn dia raba2 peha aku.mula2 aku ingtkn maybe sbb org bhimpit2,so aku biarkan je.pas2 wah melampau,tgn dia nak merayap ke bahagian depan aku lak.aku jerit la 'wei tgn 2 agk2 la!gatal!' org sume pndg tp xleh nk wat pe sbb pack gile ktm.indon ni wat muka bangang je..bodohnye indon.ikutkan ati nak je lempang dia.ni bkn first time aku kena sexual harrassment dlm ktm.dh byk kali.naik fobia aku!

3.mase aku nak kuar dari parking,keta sebelah aku n keta dpn dia park terlalu rapat smpi jln utk aku kuar mmg sempit.aku try bberapa kali utk mlepaskan diri tapi xleh gak.tgh aku dok try nk kuar parking,keta blkg hon keta aku.bengong,ko xnmpk ke aku tgh nk kuar dr jln sempit ni!! pas2 aku tension tgk dia dok je kt blkg aku,aku msuk blk parking aku then aku bg dia lalu dgn muka ketat aku pndg driver 2..hrp je pkai kopiah tapi tak reti sabar! bila dia lalu dpn keta aku,dia turunkan tgkp,
'maaf,saya bkn hon kat awk,hon kat adik saya tadi' ah lantak la,ko cari pasal dgn aku wrong time.aku dh la tgh bengang ni!!

at last,aku berjaya melepaskan diri dari parking..aku terus call wani utk melepaskan kegeraman aku..lega sikit bila dpt luahkan kt wani..then aku psg mp3 kuat2 dlm keta..

and aku pn smpi umah..

fill in da blank :)

1) Single or Taken?
- single.. =(

2) Do you like it?
- hate it!!

3) Would you kiss your ex?
- a big NO!

4) Have you had your heart broken?
- yeah..

5) Do you believe certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
- yup,bohong sunat la konon

6) Are you missing anybody right now?
- nobody i guess..

7) Do you want kids?
- of cos,i love kids

8) Would you ever consider adoption?
- na ah

9) If someone likes you would you want them to tell you?
- yes,tell me =)

10) Do you wish you were with your crush or boyfriend/ girlfriend?
- crush

11) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
- yup,i luv it

12) Do any of your Ex's still have feelings for you?
- none i guess

13) What should you be doing right now?
- iron my clothe for tomoro

14) Would you marry the person you're dating?
- maybe..

15) Do you fall for a girl/boy with blue, green, or brown eyes?
- brown..

♥ F a L L i N g ♥

I don't know how 

i don't know why 

but babe it seems

you've touched my life

you're in my dreams

you're in my heart

i call myself 

a miracle

something strange has come over me 

a raging wind 

across my seas

and babe u know that your eyes are to blame

what am i supposed to do 

if i cant get over u

i come to find that u dont feel the same

cause i'm falling falling

babe i'm falling for u

and i pray you falling too

i've been falling falling 

ever since the moment i laid my eyes on u

i lose my steps 

i lose my ground

i lose myself

when you're around

i'm holding on 

for my life

to keep from drowning in your eyes

babe what have u done to me

to make me fall so desperately

to think that i dont even know your name 

how am i supposed to live

if i cant get over this

and you decide that u dont feel the same...♥♥♥

wah jiwangnye kate2 hehe ♥♥♥

wanna know why?

i saw him after 2 weeks tak nmpk dia..

siape dia?

who?

who aaa?

♥ SYAIFUL RIZAL ♥

sape syaiful rizal?

mamat yg slalu aku nmpk dlm tren.

dia naik ktm dari sg buloh n akan turun kat stsn KL.

before this mmg almost everyday aku akan nmpk dia..tapi lately mmg jarang nmpk dia..

when i started falling in ♥ ya?

emm xingt la plak tp yg aku ingt ms tu aku n diana dlm ktm ke rawang

and dia naik dari stsn KL. he's so smart and handsome :)

mmg kemas gile mamat ni..rmbt spiky,bj kemeja kemas..dgn sling bag LV..and even on friday aku nmpk dia pn dia kmas even pkai tshirt je..

camne aku tau nm dia?

one day tu..aku tertido dlm ktm (as usual) bl aku terjaga kat stsn bank negara, i saw him standing right in front of me!

OMG, pe lg, aku dah xtentu arah la..adoiyai dia nmpk aku tersenguk2 tdo huhu..

and right in front of my eyes, i saw his ID card written SYAIFUL RIZAL ^.^

tapi yg xbest nye aku slalu nmpk dia borak dgn 2 girls yg mmg cantik and kinda howt..

and tadi, ms aku n shima br kuar dr lrt kl sntrl,i saw him at the mobile phone booth!

aku trus tahan shima and bgtau kat shima yg i hv a crush on him!

best nye!!!

pas2 aku n shima berdiri je la dpan stsn lrt tu,borak2..tb2 dia gerak dr booth 2 and mmg sah2 dia nmpk aku.aku xpandang dia tkot dia syak aku usha dia..

tapi shima pndg dia and shima ckp:

rasa cam dia tau je nina usha dia..

adoiyai,xbest la camni..then aku tgk kt jam KTM, tren rawang dh nak smpi..elok aku lps tmpt tiket 2, dia announce tren cancel lak..adoi..

emm mula2 aku ingt nk bdiri dkat dgn dia tapi since aku rs cam dia dah perasan je aku usha dia..mls la nk make it too obvious..

aku bdiri jauh skit.tp ade gak curik2 pandang tapi dia lak tgh pndg kat arah aku ms 2..malu la plak..adoi..

what am i supposed to do??? 

tapi bila aku pikir blk kan..laki handsome cam dia wont look at me twice..jgn kn twice,once pn tah2 ssh..

ntah2 ms dia pndg aku 2, dia terdetik dlm hati dia..mak aii bsar nye pompuan ni..gemoknye dia..

aku rs aku xlayak pn utk laki cam2..mst dia pilih girls yg cam slalu aku nmpk dgn dia 2..yg howt, slim, elegance and whatsoeva..

emm biar la aku just cuci mate je kan tgk dia..jadikan semangat utk dtg keje awl everyday hehe.. aku sedar siapa la diri ku ini hehe..

TARI TIRANA VS SUMPAHAN BUNIAN

every tuesday, mesti berebut dgn mama tv..
aku nk tgk TARI TIRANA, mama nak sambung tgk SUMPAHAN BUNIAN.
sumpahan bunian habis kul 930 tapi tari tirana start kul 9.

aku: ma, dah start dah.kul 9 tu.
mama: nanti la,kang dia nak nyanyi dl lg, sempat tgk cite ni jap..

adoyai, camni la gayanye every single week..huhuhu setiap kali iklan tv3 mst mama cpat2 bkak tv9..even tv ade lg 1 kat ats tp tak clear huhu..bosan..

actually sumpahan bunian pun aku layan gak. best gak.suka tgk nora danish in this drama, so sweet and gentle.tapi geram gak aku tgk elly mazlein dlm cite ni full of gedikness huhu

tari tirana mmg aku layan.. ntah la maybe sbb ni cite teenagers and its involve music, thats y i loike :)
aku suke tgk Chika in this drama, her dancing move really flawless but tirana a bit gedik i guess. but i like both becos both can dance gracefully =)
tapi yg xleh blah nye tirana and chika berebut si neo yg cam mamat bangla tuh
adoyai klu aku, xpandang pn mamat tuh even bdn dia mantap hehe..
aku suke tgk mmbr si neo si ali tu.nampak klaka la mamat tu.leh thn gak hehe dari si neo tuh..
wateva it is mmg credit for all the tari tirana's actors and actress.

GYM n WTF komuter!!!

ari jumaat aku n shema g gym..SYNAR GYM kl sentral..
lame gile seyh x g gym or exercise huhu..badan daku sudah berat hehe
start 630 pm,and aku dh wat mcm2 cume knp aku xleh wat sit up ek..
bl aku wat, sit tak up up huhu.shema wat rilex je.pas dah exercise, badan terase sedikit ringan hehe..
pas dah bergym,pe lagi ktorg serbu msuk steam bath room and sauna..
pergh bez gile..dekat sejam gak ktorg bersteam huhu..pas2 mandi,fresh sungguh bdn kami ^.^
ktorg grak dr gym kul 915.

lepas mandi

aku tggu ktm dr kul 920,spatotnye ade tren kul 935 tapi..
'tren ke rawang dijangka tiba di platform 4 pada jam 955 malam' SHIT!

xpela,aku tggu lagi..dgn penuh saba..
then masa 950..

'tren ke rawang sekarang ini berada di stesen seputeh, dijangka tiba di platform 4 pada jam 1005 malam'

SETAN!!

ktm ni klu xnyusahkan idup aku sehari mmg xsah!
bl tren sampai je mak aii bkn main rmai lg..time2 camni pn rmai lg umat manusia..
aku kna bdiri..sampai kt bank negara baru duduk.
lembab tul tren ni..dahla tu dari putra ke segambut dia leh stop kat tgh2 lak..lame gile..pas 2 stop lagi antara kuang ke rawang..

WTF!!

aku sampai stsn rawang kul 11.gile arr..

W.E.D.D.I.N.G

17 OCT 2009

hari ni our officemate aisya bersanding disebelah lelaki plak kat dewan perdana felda.majlis start kul 830 mlm
aku and wani gerak dari office kul 6 pm,jem bkn main lagi nak masuk ke sentul.kul 7 smpi umah shima.

aku n wani tak gosok baju lagi, mak shima yg baik ati volunteer gosokkan baju ktorg.thanx makcik!! :)

aku n wani bersiap kelam kabut and akhirnya ktorg siap,gerak dalam 745 mlm.gerak lak g amik myra n lai.
wah lai bkn main lg vogue,cantik (dia jarang mekap,skali dia mekap, walla) yg lain pn cantik gak.wani n shima pkai baju tunang dorg.aku je pkai baju kurung biasa,yg maniknya aku jahit sndri.hehe

bl sume dh dlm keta,ktorg pn gerak la..leh plak terlajak dari simpang nk masuk dewan 2..pas 2 dorg salahkan aku sbb aku la dorg sesat..padahal dorg yg slh bg direction.

smpi je dewan,ktorg dah segan2 nk masuk sbb zubaida dah msuk dulu..ktorg masuk jela dgn penuh keayuan hehe.ktorg dok sblh table zubaida n suraya.suraya tgk ktorg yg cantik ni mcm xpnh tgk pmpn cantik hehe.

845 mlm..

majlis bermula,pengantin melangkah masuk..stunned with aisyah's beauty tonyte.mula dgn bacaan doa and etc..
marissa yasmin (actress cite jelatang) dok 1 table dgn ktorg.husband dia hensem seyh even dh beruban hehe.lmbt tul nk mkn,ktorg dh la lpr ni..lps persembahan dari penari istana budaya, sesi makan2 bermula.quite good the menu..fav : TAPAI AISKRIM : yummy..

dh lps persandingan, ktorg bergambar la pe lagi..ktorg bgambar dlm dewan b4 gerak kuar.kat luar,gmbr dgn pengantin lak.anyway ktorg (aku,wani,shema,myra n lai) mmg gile bgambar hehe.kat parking pn ktorg bgambar.

dlm kul 10 lbh ktorg gerak balik.tdo umah wani.g uptown danau kota then minum2 kt NZ.dlm kul 3pagi ktorg balik umah wani..

~T.H.E E.N.D~

kembali ke rahmatullah..

al -fatihah to rudy sekeluarga atas sekembalinya ibunya ke rahmatullah..

arwah pergi pada 2/10/09 tapi aku baru tau on 14/10/09..kalau rudy sendiri xgtau, aku xkan tau..
arwah meninggal disebabkan batuk berdarah.memang rudy ada cakap kat aku yg mak dia asik sakit2, batuk2,demam..tapi xde la sangka mak dia akan pergi secepat ni..

aku terkilan sebab aku xsempat nak mintak maaf dgn mak dia..aku tau mak dia xberapa suka aku but she was a nice women and i know dia di'suap'kan dgn mcm2 cite tipu n fitnah ttg aku dari pompuan yg xtau malu..that's y dia xsuka dgn aku..tapi aku rase cam aku ade gak wat dia tersinggung..smoga arwah mengampuni and menghalalkan segala makan minum aku selama ni..

aku ingat lagi after aku putus dgn rudy, (disebabkan mak dia) mak dia bermati-matian xnak terima aku lg.
sampaikan arwah pernah anta msg kat aku kate aku ni mengikis duit rudy..aku menangis ms dpt msg tu..sbb aku bkn cam2 and rudy pn tau aku bkn cam2..emm dah la, aku cam mengaibkan arwah lak..dia dah pergi..biarlah dia pergi..aku xsimpan dendam pn pd arwah..tapi aku bharap arwah ampunkan segalanya..

semoga rohnya ditempatkan disisi org yang beriman..AMIN..

am i still cant get over H.I.M?

title cam xdpt terima kenyataan jew hehe..
well it has been more than 1 year after i broke up wit R***. aku pn xphm la..aku still syg dia ke? I guess not..
tp smlm aku stalked his FB,(stalk ke?tgk je ^.^) and i saw a pic of him wit new girl.
am i jealous?erm myb a bit..but not bcos i still in love with him but why cant i get someone new in my life?
dia pnh btunang after we broke up tapi dah putus and now he found someone..hermm after only stahun 7 bln broke up,dia ade 2 org dlm hidup dia (or myb dh lbh)
but me?emm still alone..bkn aku xpnh try terima org lain dlm hidup ak, tapi sumenye xmenjadi.. they all are like S**T.
those yg rapat dgn aku,tau la aku mmg pnh rapat dgn a few men after broke up..
~s*****i~ f**z~ s****n~
 tapi sume nye cam haram.. actually dorg ni la yg wat kan aku cam xcaye laki lg bukan sbb r***..

shema byk kali tanye aku..

shema: nina xnk try kwn dgn org lain ke?

me: bkn xnk tp penat la asik dikecewakan..

shema: xsume laki cam2..

me: tapi sume laki yg nina jmpe cam2..

shema: nina jgn tutup hati nina utk terima org lain..

me: ntah la ma..i'm sick n tired of it..

lastly,shema pn surrendered dgn kes aku..smpi kan shema kate dia nk adjust aku dgn sorg bdk ofis merangkap mmbr ktorg merangkap mmbr s*****i. mmg la mamat ni smart,hensem gak la tp sbb dia mmbr s*****i, sorry la..nnt kang tah ape dorg komplot nk kenakan aku..tul x?

tahla...aku slalu remind myself.. 
let time decide...

FIRST BLOG EVER..

haloo..at last aku wat gak blog aku..dari sehari ke sehari nak wat,tp xwat2 gak huhu..

thanx to payid showed me a lil bit how to blog :)

terkial2 lagik sbnrnye hehe..

tp xpe,pelan2 kayuh..

dulu aku suke tulis diari but i guess i follow the flow la kn..org dh x tulis diary,org wat blog hehe..

so pape yg aku rs nak luahkan,aku luahkan kt cni la plak..