how do i feel?!

how do u feel if sumone that u admired,adored, usha from distance, said in front of ur face that he hav a crush on sumone else that u know very well?
oh man, berkecai2 ati mcm jatuh terhempas kat batu..

and how bout if that person he usha also admit that he is good looking and siap suh kem salam lagi..watcha gonna do?
me?of cos i didnt send the regards to him..(berdosanye aku)

am i jealous? am i envy her? am i a bad person?

the answer for all questions above is YES!! i am jealous cos he didnt see me who is in front of him and by his side all this while..i am envy her cos she is more attractive than me (i admit that) and i think i am a bad person cos didnt send him the regards..

sigh..sigh..
i guess maybe i'm not listed on his taste of girl..
then just pasrah je la..wat to do..