b a h a g i a

kau ada pasangan yang setia menyayangimu
kau ada kerja idaman
kau ada keluarga yang sempurna
itu bahagia mu.


dia mencintai tetapi tidak dicintai
dia menyayangi tetapi tidak memiliki
dia menunggu yang tidak pasti
itu bahagia dia

siapalah kita untuk mengukur tahap bahagia insan lain
mungkin kita lihat itu sebagai derita
tetapi padanya itulah bahagia

dia bahagia kerana di hatinya ada cinta
dia bahagia kerana melihat kesayangannya bahagia walau bukan dengannya
dia bahagia kerana kesayangannya bahagia walau bukan kerananya
dia bahagia dengan perasaan yang diberikan kesayangannya
dia bahagia dengan kenangan itu baik pahit mahupun manis
dia bahagia kerana pengorbanannya untuk yang disayangi
dia bahagia melihat kebahagiaan itu dengan titisan airmata
dia bahagia mengharap walau segalanya kabur
dia bahagia dalam derita

kamu.kamu.dan kamu.
mungkin bahagiamu tidak seperti 'bahagianya'
namun janganlah doakan penyesalan kepadanya
sebaliknya doakan kebahagiaan diakhir 'bahagianya' itu
jangan menanti untuk menyatakan 'aku dah cakap dulu,kau taknak dengar'
tapi katakan dengan hati yang tulus 'mungkin itu bahagiamu, redhalah'

ikhlas ku katakan ku bahagia
menyayangi.mencintai.mencurah kasih.menjadi penyokong.menjadi penunggu cinta.

aku bahagia melihat dia bahagia.gembira.
aku tidak menyayangi kerana aku perlukan dia
tetapi aku perlukan dia kerana aku menyayanginya

30 Questions Challenge -part II

6. If you had to spend a day not using any technology, what would you do?

• be in dreamland lalalala

7. Favourite song of the moment.

• A Thousand Years - Christina Perry

8. Concerts i've been to.

• Avril Lavigne
• Mariah Carey

9. Last Awkward situation you were in

• went to Kuantan with my big boss and my colleague. i drove and my boss sat beside me. it was awkward because the radio was off. the situation was dead silence. i didnt know what to chat with him and my colleague slept at the back.

10. Favorite football club.

• Manchester United (^.^)

11. What’s your sign?

• The bull

12. Future names of your children.
         haaaa i loike this...

• Airiene Natasya
• Harries Danial

13. What is your favorite flower?

• carnation

14. What is your relationship status?

• it's complicated. how i wish he is officially mine now and forever.

15. A book you want to read/have recently read.

• none. errr lama gila tak membaca baca ni....

16. What do you want to major in?

• TESL (T_T)
• handmade thingy
• wedding/event planning

17. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

• owh damn that is wayyy too young for my age

18. Your reflection in the mirror

• plus-sized ass, fluffy-bun cheeks, big-rounded eyes package with permenant eye bags, long-blacky hair, cute plus sweet plus mengada face hahahah

19. Things you like and dislike about yourself.

• I like the fact that i love him so much but i dislike the fact that it hurts
• I like that I've stand by his side for 2 years but i dislike that no matter how much heartache i've got, i could never walk away
• I like that I can tame my temper but I dislike that people take it for granted
• I like that I grew maturer and stop being such a bad-mouth person but i dislike when people pushing me to be the one I was.

20. Who are you looking forward to seeing.

• my future hubby, erk. hehehe

21. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with.

• Him (KG) a deep heart-to-heart conversation

22. Weird things you do when you're alone.

• talk to myself  especially in the car, in my room

23. Are you an organized person?

• urmmm nope, i guess

24. Your opinion on cheating on people

• some peeps cheated because they dont want to hurt the one they loved (i did it sometimes)
• urmmm when it come to the person i love the most, i still can forgive him over and over again. yes, call me stupid dumb ass but almost everyone will do the same when it comes to the person they loved the most.

25. When was the last time you were nervous?

• during Kursus Induksi in Perlis. to be exact during public speaking session hehehe

26. Do you consider yourself to be lazy?

• hahahaha yes! I'm a lazy gal hahaha

27. If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be?

• urmm, 21 maybe.

28. What is your favorite form of exercise?

• i dont exercise on regular basis but i enjoyed cycling, roller -blading, eating (it's mouth exercise hahaha)

29. At what age did you become an adult?

• 20 years old

30. 5 things you want/ need to buy.

• house
• latest iPhone
• external hard disk
• craft punchers
• my car's spoiler!

~the end~

30 QUESTIONS CHALLENGE -part I

challenge ni dipetik dari belog si aakiss ni haaaa. saje nak buang masa hehehe

1. Who are you? Names, nationalities, and virtually any other socially-defined attributes do not count. Deep down, who are you?

• deep down, aku adalah seorang yang super penyabar tatkala ini. ya aku tak faham Allah berikan aku kesabaran yang amatlah tinggi tatkala ini bila berkaitan dengan KG.
• aku seorang yg dulunya agak notty tapi sekarang dah baik (^.^) dulu aku jenis cakap lepas tapi bila dah matang ni, aku control mulut aku. cumanya aku terkilan ada yang ambil kesempatan. warning untuk korang,jangan sampai mulut aku jadi cam dulu, you'll regret it.
• aku ni manja dengan adik2 lelaki aku walaupun aku yang sulung lalalala.
• walaupun aku amik dip in civil eng, tapi aku nak sangat sambung degree dalam TESL (^.^)

2.Why my last relationship ended.

• sebab family nuffsaid.

3. How i’d spend ten thousand bucks.

• nak beli 1 machine yang boleh mama guna untuk urut kaki dia so that kaki dia tak sakit
• nak beli tools untuk buat handmade cards
• nak make up munchkin aka kereta ku
• nak bawak family pergi vacay dengan aku sponsor sepenuhnya

4. What i want to be when i get older.

• i wanna be someone who'll be remembered as a person that once put a smile on people's face.
• i wanna be someone who'd done something good, might not a big favor but unforgetable one.
• i wanna be someone who'd successful in whatever i do. to be acknowledge by my superior.
• i wanna be a wife that my hubby can be proud of, a daughter that my parents will ever wished for, a sister that my bros will turn to everytime they need a woman touch, a friend who'll never be forgotten.
• i wanna be someone that people will say "i'm glad that i know you."

5. Favourite place to shop at.

• One Utama
• Midvalley
• Downtown hehehe

okay 5 questions dulu, nanti sambung balik hehehehe daaaa