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call me dumbass

call me stupid 

call me blind

but i just dont care..

i dont love you because who you are..

but i love you because of who i am when i'm with you.

i know, when people get to know what i have sacrificed for you, they will think i am stupid. why on earth wasting our time, our energy, our money, our love, our concern to someone who dont appreciate or dont deserve it?

my answer would be...

when you love someone with all your heart, all you ever wanted is his happiness. 

your heart will be extremely happy when you see the smile on his face, the laughter that he shares with you.

you wont even care how much you have sacrificed for him, what have you done for him, how many tears shed for him.

everything will be washed off when you know that he is safe and sound, happy and smiling.

despite all the tears shed because of you...i would be glad to let it be as long as you repay it with your happiness.. 

even if one day, you receive a news that he has someone else, you will cry...but cry over his happiness and accept that he is not meant for you.

my main concern is his happiness. i know the chances for me to be hurt is huge...but i wont care.

my heart will be at ease as long as he know i'll be there for him no matter what.

if people ask me why do i love him so much?

....for that i have no answer....

*you'll always have my heart until the day someone else take it from you....* 

muveee

tadi tonton muvee baru kat MVM. dengan Mock.siape lak Mock ni?
ex-schoolmate yang aku tak pernah bertegur pun ahaks. dah dia ajak,keluar je la..kawan2 kan hehe

kami pun decided untuk menonton UNSTOPPABLE.

pelakon dia Denzel Washington dan Chris Pine.
mula-mula cerita ni macam bosan dan sangat slow. sebab kejap tunjuk orang ni bawak train kejap tunjuk orang ni pulak bawak train..aku pun tak paham cerita ni pasal apa mula2 sebab tak tengok dia punya preview sebelum nonton hehe. tapi towards the end agak best dan sangat suspense.cerita ni mengenai 2 orang train driver yang menjadi hero untuk men-stop-kan train yang berjalann tanpa pemandu. agak suspender la bila tengok babak2 train tanpa pemandu tu meluru laju je kat landasan sampai semua orang kena ke tepi. dan yang paling syiok tengok Will (Chris Pane) yang matanya sangat lah menggoda hehe..

malas nak cerita lebih lah hehe,gi la tengok kat panggung. out of 5 stars,aku bagi 3 setengah la hehe.

inilah train yang unstoppable tu

inilah chris pane yang hensem itu

happy but i've decided to back off..

my dearie.. F.I.

i love every single feeling when i'm with you..

but being with you as your lover, i guess is wayyy tooooo impossible...

you make me happy everytime we were together..

but sometimes i misjudged the meaning of your kindness..

i think we cant go on like this anymore..

i love you more than you ever know or notice and i know that i wont have your love in return...

every time i looked into your eyes, i always hope your eyes will show that there is love for me,but i couldnt find it..

i didnt know what spell you've put me under because all i've seen is your goodness..

i guess i'm the only person who have faith on you that one fine day you will change to be a better person..

i believe in you...i know you have potential to be a great person..

despite all the bad-talking peeps threw and told me bout ya, i still believe and have faith that you will change..

i trust you on this,you have my full support..

it seems like, the closer we are, the more i love you...

nobody understand why i love you and even me, myself didnt know the reason why...

now, i've determine that i wanna put a distance between us..something that i should have done long time ago..

i wanna let the love that growing inside me for you,stop growing and ready to let you go...

because why.....? i dont have the concrete reason for that but i guess it is the best way for both of us...

please take a good care of yourself while i'm not with you because, i love you more than you do love yourself..