awkward moment

it's really awkward when you're having a conversation with your ex about your crush or your current boyfie...

i'm having a conversation bout my crush with my ex.omigad! it is so damn awkward but he seems concern bout me..he just asking how's everything going with 'him'?
then the conversation goes...

i dunno how to express what i feel inside when we having this awkward moment..but i feel comfortable spit all out bout KG..

and guess what, he gave me advices bout how to make KG realize my worth..hehehehe
well mr ex,you know what, i like you now more than you were before...

when i start to doubt you,you surprised me

i have to admit that sometimes (almost all the time) i have doubt on you..
i always have negative thoughts bout you after that 'argument'...
but you know what, every time i start to doubt you, you will surprise me with something that i dont even expect.


you always surprised me with something sweet and i melted ^_^
you always know how to make me feel happy and smiling..
how can i ever live without that?

everytime i'm thinking of leaving you because of the 'internal conflict' that you have, you always made me stop and give you another chance even though you have no idea what's on my mind..

i sincerely love you dear, so pretty please make me have full faith on you again with your charm and honesty..

doakan kesihatan beliau..

masa kat kenduri yantie last sunday, abah told me yang atuq tak sedarkan diri sebab kahak dalam paru-paru dia banyak.ayahlong dah bawak pergi hospital and tunggu je resultnya..
kalau ikutkan kepenatan aku,aku malas nak balik dari rumah yantie lagi..ingat nak balik pagi isnin,tapi hati rasa tak sedap..so aku gagahkan juga balik rumah,dalam keadaan hujan yang lebat tu..

esoknya,aku bangun tido,abah cakap doc sahkan atuq kena stroke..so abah suruh semua balik..pe lagi,aku bergegas angkut adik2 aku la nak bawak balik kampung..
dan terus ke terengganu..sampai kat sana pukul 1 pagi..tu pun kalau tak boleh sampai lagi awal,abah la tak bagi bawak laju2..aku bawak 80km/j je..

hari selasa pagi,terus pergi tengok atuk..sedih sangat tengok condition dia..dia langsung tak sedar...cuma kadang2 mengerang sebab banyak kahak dalam paru2 dia...
hari rabu,kitorang dah balik KL sebab atuk still tak ada improvement..cuma tunggu ajelah berita dari ayahlong...

ya Allah,panjangkan lah umur atuk...